15th November 2007

My oh my...exam's drawing near...i'm stuck in the library for a few days now...and in college for a few weeks already...haish...And the worst part is that i am being accompanied by Tom and Khaled!!Those 2 idiots!!Haih....its all because of these 2 papers that i'll be sitting...F7 Financial Reporting and F8 Audit&Assurance...tough shit aren't they?!!Haih...aside from preparing myself for the exams..i've been thinking a lot about my future and also about my love...
My goals and objectives for the future..doing some plannings and thinking about it all the time...all i wanna do in the future is as simple as to make my family happy and have a real good life...planning can be easy..but to execute it ...man...you need some guts and courage to do it!!
Besides that, i've also been thinking about my love...the girl i love the most..the one who can also be called another half of me..we have so much in common and yet so different in a way...Fazliana Amiza...my sweetheart, my darling girl, my chick, my PRINCESS.....
With her, i learned about so many things...i learned so much that sometimes i even thought of authoring a book about it....Imagine me authoring a book called "Being in Love With Miza"...its cool huh?
You might be thinking:"I bet Omar has known her for years now that he is thinking of writing a book about her."Well, you know what mate?!I have known her for almost 5 months now...and damn man...the experience that i've gone through and am still going through is unexpectedly a lot!!
Being with her, i have come to conclusion that being in love is like doing a chemical experiment in the laboratory..Like what they say " you need to have chemistry to be in love"...haha... in my opinion and from wat i have experienced, love is not always a happy and fun thing...its a mixture of all emotional feelings...like a chemical reaction where one puts all the chemical substance inside a test tube and working hard to make something out of it..but in order to wait for the final result to show up..all sorts of explosion, smell, colour changing and sounds will appear...and most of the time the temperature will go up and down unbalanced...all one can do is to wait and to be hopeful that something beneficial might come up..love is like that i guess..if u dun get wat i juz said..
Let us just see what conclusion have i come to and how i compare them:

Love Psychological Term vs Chemical Term
1) Love vs Test Tube
Reason: Love contains emotional feelings like a test tube containing chemical substances.The structure or the frame.
2) Mixture of Feelings vs Mixture of Chemical Subtances
Reason: A mixture of feelings while being in love has almost the same intangible property like a mixture of chemical substances.
3) Temperemental vs Temperature
Reason: Being in love, an individual might experience a sudden change of temper which can be conditional or unconditional = the changes of temperature due to the reaction of different types of chemical substances.
4) Time is a factor vs Time as a de facto
Reason: Time will be the factor in order to realise the dream between you and your lover (dream usually refers to marriage) and for chemical experiment time will determine the results of the chemical reaction.
5) Hope vs Hope
Reason: Everyone who's really in love will remain hopeful that the love will work out nicely forever, same goes with chemical experiment where the chemist will remain hopeful that his experiment will work out.

I think 5 points are good enough to show how i feel and think about love...i love being in love but i also hate the'sub'- feelings that will come with it(as you might know they come in a package)...jealousy,emotional,being hurt, being sad for no reason...sometimes i do think that 2 persons in love really need to understand each other...by having only 1 person doing it is just not fair and it doesn't seem to work that way...Love is a responsibility and a commitment between 2 parties. So once we're in it, we need to work on it.
But then again, no one can escape from doing mistakes. We sometimes might forget to take care of each other's feelings or sometimes we are just being overly sensitive...its ok sometimes but its not alright everytime, all the time.....
Sometimes i do get fed up and pissed off because of this and also at myself. To me, i have always put the blame on myself(reminds me of Akon's 'Blame It On Me') that's why sometimes i'm really pissed at myself and having a little bit of emotional moment. It's actually really hard to remind your partner all the time about what you expect from him/her but sometimes it's also better for you to just keep it to yourself and to be hopeful that the bitterness might just be gone someday....isn't that what love consist of?.....HOPE?
Take care People!!

P/S: I love you Miza honey!Sorry if i've hurt you all this while....

Life After Meeting Her....

Well..well...wel...it has been so long since i last posted my blog.
It has been quite a hectic few months as i've experienced so many new things within these months.
And the most important thing would be after meeting her.
It is soo cool to have her to be there when i need her to be around.....hahhaa...its just so nice...this beautiful lady has her own ego and yet she's still really humble....man man man....talk about my dream girl..i think i've just found one!!!
I've nvr thought abt having a really commited relationship and i have also nvr thought of marrying a girl this bad....with her...damn man..i'm willing to work really hard for this relationship, be more responsible, be more commited than ever, and also to marry her!!
Abt this girl, hmm....all i can say is that she has the same mindset like i do...and she knows wat i'm thinking all the time!! It is soo cool although sometimes it can be really scarry!! Hahaa...
This is the girl who can finish my sentences of whatever things that i wanna say, a girl who will say things that i juz thought of saying, and a girl who will do things before i even ask her to do....man...our mentalities are so similar that sometimes i do think that we might be twins...but then again, we do also have our own differences...like how i like to go out at night and she doesn't, how i like to go swimming and she doesn't, how she likes certain food and i dun,and etc....all i know is that she's just like another missing part of mine, we are like yin and yang, the symbol. I would say that she completes me as a person and also as a man.
She makes me feel comfortable all the time, she teaches me on how to be more responsible, she showed me how important a family value is, she told me to be more hardworking, and because of her, i'm working so hard and dun wanna look back.
I think its enuff for now, last word from me.....If you ever read this sayang, keep it in your heart and mind that I LOVE YOU and will always DO! You've given me so much, and in return i'm willing to give as much and more of whatever that you need and want me to give. Know this ok?!! Lets grow up together and complete each other!!
See ya around!!

My Life Now....

Finished my CAT exams on the 14th of June that day.Its a relief that finally i can move on to another level of ACCA.And now i'm doing F7 and F8 on Saturday and Sunday as a part time student, while working from Monday till Friday..
Life has been on my side s to lately...the job that i've got now is pretty cool, nice working colleagues, and yeah the salary is ain't bad either.
Back to when i was preparing myself for CAT finals, i spent most of the time through out the month studying in college with my Iranian brother Soheil Behiyyat.Wuahuhauha....it was kinda cool.Studying from morning till 3 am...coffee was our loyal companion then. Sometimes we would be studying without having any money with us and gotta walk all the way to Soheil's place and grab some food to keep us alive. Though it might sound as if we were suffering while preparing for the exams , both of us had never thought of it this way... We would say that it was a really cool experience and it sorta like strengthened our friendship bond. Sometimes, when we were having a break from the revision, we would talk about our future together and talk about chicks and stuff like that...well, who said studying ain't fun?
Haha...we created some fun to be synchronised with our revision time. It was really really cool!!
Now, we are still waiting for our CAT results to be released and currently doing our intermediate level in ACCA.
There's so much i have gained now and i dun wanna lose any of it.
I have got myself a best friend(a brother so to say), a job while still studying for ACCA and a really pretty girlfriend.
All i need to do now is to just concentrate on my achievement and strike my goal one by one whilst doing it step by step.I do hope that whatever that i'm working on and whatever that i've targeted will turn into a reality and a success.
And finally to my gf, i love you babe!!You are the best! You are my girlfren, my best fren, my sister and also my soulmate. It has always been fun when i'm with you!!Thank You!!

How do you value them?

To see everyone enjoying their lives kinda makes me happy and sad at the same time. To be called amateur by a beginner can be such a heartache. To be stereotyped into something that you are not is ridiculous. To be sympathized with something that you rather not mention is annoying. To be judged on something that you have never done is extremely unfair. To be told and adviced on what to do by someone who think they know better even when they don't can be a nuisance.
Most people will look for one's liability before one's asset. And from there, they'll start to judge you. The more assets you have, a better person you are. The more liabilities you have, the further they will stay away from you. But then, what's the real benchmarking system to judge the value of an asset and a liability. An asset may not be as 'classy', but it may be valuable. A liablity can put a stain to the name, but it doesn't necessarily bring a catastrophe to the life.
But then again, life's 'balance sheet' can be interpreted differently. The 'assets' and 'liabilities' are subjective. There can be numerous individual interpretations for a single 'asset'. But to those who want to win, the valuation of others won't matter, all they'll do is value what's their real 'assets' and their 'liabilities'. From there, they'll balance their life's balance sheet, and hence enjoy a well balanced life with peace and excitement. And that's what i'll do, even if it means i have to move in a slower pace than others, and even if it means i have to be more patient to wait for a better outcome and assets. Age doesn't matter, Quality and value matter.

My current state...

Loneliness is creeping within me, boredom is my second home, sadness is what i feel, happiness is what i lack of. Its pretty hard to be me. To most that know me, annoyance is what they define me.To a certain extent, i'm just being me. But that's not all about me. To me, all i wanna do is to make others feel happy, and at the same time to make them feel my presence. But then again, if i were to joke a lot, some would feel that i'm annoying. If i were to be serious, they would label me as an emo. So, what exactly should i do? What do you want me to do? Is it possible for me to satisfy everyone? Is it possible for me to make everyone happy?Absurd....And by that being said, loneliness has made me its easy prey.For i have finally been emotionally affected by others acceptance towards my presence.
Now that i'm feeling the effect of loneliness, its making me feeling like crap. I don't know why i'm feeling so lonely. Maybe i need to meet new people, making new friends, going out to a new hang out place, or maybe all i need is juz to find a special someone?Or maybe... i need to do them all? I dun know...its hard to tell. Its not like i'm a computer or something. If something goes wrong, how am i supposed to know the detail of what has gone wrong? The general sickness that i'm having now is just loneliness..the detail on how to cure it..naah...not too sure about it.The vaccine for it is still unknown to me.
Now i'm feeling like a mannequin, a body with nothing inside. You can smash it, whack it, kick it, strip it and sorts. It will still not say anything, do anything. All it does is smile at you as if you've just done something noble. Well, that's how numb and how lifeless i feel now. And since my life is quite boring and pretty stagnant now...the loneliness is getting worse. Nothing new and exciting to spark up my juice of life. Nothing new for me to do to forget about the loneliness...Even if there is, i can't be certain that my loneliness will fade away just like that..
Come to think about it, maybe all i need now is just something or someone to deviate me from this loneliness that i feel...For i am now what you can call as Mr. Lonely.
I'm bouncing off...
PS: Man...i sounded so desperate in this article. DANG!!

Life as a traveler...

Haha...its been awhile since i last talked about my life in switzerland...See the the photo of me with Pablo upthere?We were standing in front of a Kebab shop...its called King's Kebab..if u happened to be in Zuerich..ask for it!!Its sorta like the non-official cuisine from Switzerland!!Yo Pablo if you see this...juz wanna tell you man..the Kebab in Malaysia ain't the same like the one in Switzerland..Wat abt in Brasil man?Any good Kebabs there?Vixi mano!!Wuahuhauha....
Life ain't the same without you bro!!Come to Malaysia mofo!!Imagine how it feels like to take a train that passes through mountains..not some normal mountains but the alps!!Man the feeling is wonderous!!Hahhahah...Miss that trip!!



































Zurich main station (Zuerich HauptBahnhoff), the place where all of the international students all over Switzerland gathered and meet...its the place that we would always chill..the place where i have met lotsa people with lotsa faces!! the place where i would chill and obeserve people..some would say loitering!!Hahaha...






ZUERICH HAUPT-BAHNHOFF!

The main entrance to the station!!It looks nice both in and out!!How i wish Malaysian train station would look like this...hahaa..








STONIN' STATION!!

One of the guys who wants to legalize weed in Switzerland walking around in the train station...asked him to pose for future reference he said : 'yeah ok!' ...asked him for da weed he said : 'Its not even enuff for me alone!!' I was like wat?!!Dude..ehemm..i mean uncle..you've got the whole tree for yourself, c'mon!! Gimme some at least!!
eventhough i din get some, but i bet the man would have some major 'stoning-fun' that night!!Hahaha...Bravo Mr.Pot-carryin-funny-lookin-stoner!!Keep up the good work!! hahah...


So, alrite y'all...i guess that's it for now...there'll be more story on my life in Switzerland next time..till then...Uufwiederluege!!

Memories...Erinnerungen

Here are some of the photos that i took when was still staying in Switzerland...These photos are taken in the outskirt of Luzern (the town i stayed) while i was hiking with my foster dad. You can see a small town down there...and the Vierwaldstaettersee (four wood state lake - direct translation)..If i'm not mistaken, this mountain that i'm hiking on is called Der Buergenstock.

These are few of the places that i'd go and chill while eating my Kebaab....haha...and also to kiffen (smoking pot)...hahaha...Der Kappelbruecke (the chappel bridge) is one of the historical monuments in Luzern. If you ever had the chance to walk on the bridge, you can see many paintings on top of ya, telling you the history of the bridge.

Bahnhoff and Der Altstadt (train station and Old City)...Places that i go to every single day....
These are the places that i'd go every single day after school..sometimes just to meet my frens and sometimes just to chill and relax...its nice to observe people there.

Also, zaeme..es gibt schon viele schoene Errinerungen hier in der schweiz..einfach viel weisst?!Ich habe gerne noch mal dort gehen um meine freunden besuchen. Das Leben in Luzern ist einfach schoen..die leute sind auch kuul.Ich will auch wahrscheinlich dort arbeiten und auch eines Leben aufbauen.Haha...ich habe schon lange kein mehr auf Deutsch gesprochen, besonders Schweizer Deutsch...Schwiitzerduutsch gael?!!Ech chon noed mehr uuf Schwiitzerduutsch sproche. Ech ha alles vergasse!!Haha...villicht ech chond noch Schwiitzerduutsch noch spache wenn ech wiedermol in der Schwiitz noch bliibe. Hahaha..tschuldingung gael? Letzlich, einer typisch wort von der schweiz vor mann Schweitzer Deutsch sprechen kannt, der wort 'Chuchichatschliich'....hahhaa...lernt wie dieser wort auf Schwittzerduutsch zu sprechen..bis bald zaemen!!tschau!!